Still Here!

Hello! I still exist. I just keep forgetting to tell you.

It’s been over three months since I began chemotherapy, and it’s been a bumpy ride to say the least. But sometimes I just don’t want to talk about it. So I’ve been gone for a bit.

A few updates:

My eyebrows are falling out but through the magic of brow pencil and tinted brow gel, you can’t even tell. Thank goodness I’m good at doing my makeup.

After a recent PET scan, the doctor said my cancer is responding well to the chemo, so hopefully by the end of January I’ll be done with chemotherapy.

At the same time, the doctor said they may also have me go through radiation after my chemo is done. But that wasn’t 100%. So maybe I won’t have to. At this point, I’m resigned to going through treatment forever. Just stick me in a blender already.

I’m not so mad anymore. I still think it’s bullshit that I got cancer, and it’s hard and frustrating and makes me sad some days, but I’m not so angry at the universe anymore. I think I just got the routine down (chemo one week, off the next, chemo again…) and am trying to make it work the best I can.

For the third year in a row, I’m writing a poem a day with three of my close friends and even managed to write one today (an infusion day…my legs feel like lead).

So thank you for reading and caring about me. Who knows when I’ll post again, but just know that I’m doing as well as can be expected!